How?

He,, kept asking me for it,..
But i refused.
even fore the umpeteen time,, he still ask me.
Who does he think i am?
A maid who Must follow his orders..?
Though sometimes i wanna say yes,,
Im scared that he might use this as an advantage to ask me for more.
But,, he is too,, caring towards me..
What now? Say 'Yes' or say 'No' ?

how come?

How come tings go so fast?
Im wondering,,
whats his motive.
Could it be .....?
But,, im not pretty..?

Changed in Life

I'm changing...
Changing into a different person which you never knew..

LIES

Those lies...
It hurts so much..
Sometimes i wonder,
why lie?
Its not fun lying okay?
If you're being lied by your loved ones..
How would you feel?
If its mei'll feel horrible.
You may just think: '' Lying only mah... Also nothing wrong.... I then don't believe you never lie before lorh... ''
Let me tell you, EVERYTHING IS WRONG.
I mean why lie?
ESPECIALLY TO YOUR LOVED ONES.
They are your Loved Ones for a reason okay?!
Know whats the reason?
becos you TRUST THEM.
THATS WHY THEY ARE YOUR LOVED ONES. STUPID

I hate this

Your just using me..
I Can Tell.
This feeling, is so familiar;
Those memories,
replayed inside of me.
Those sadness;
Hurtful words..
Came into my mind.
I'm crying..
Deep inside my heart,
i never wanted this to happen..
I know a sorry is not enough for you.
But what can i do?

Envy

I envy people who is able to live happily without worries..
Hais,,, if only i am able to be like them..
Life would be perfect.

Can't believe it.

I can't believe it...
She is actuAlly her kOr..
ITS SO MIRACLE.
Now, I kinna hate him?
My feelings are so mixed up..
Hais

I feel weird

I feel so guilty....
Should I just stay with them?
I wanna become a gud girl again,but.. Can I?

If... Things get out of hand.. Then how?
I pretend to be happy,,for her. But does she knows that?
No.......
This is so saddening

Chinese lesson~~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~
had chinese class with ANG KAI LIN!! MY DARLING~ XPP
If only Daniella were there to join us~
then it'll be AWESOMEZXC \m/
Then cher said bout FACEBOOK..
Then cher ask wad's facebook in chinese,,
then jeremy said FEI SI BU KE..!!!
LOL WTF.
If only everyday liddat,,
CHINESE WOULD BE MY FAVOURITE  LESSON MANZXC!! XDDD

Chinese lesson~~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~
had chinese class with ANG KAI LIN!! MY DARLING~ XPP
If only Daniella were there to join us~
then it'll be AWESOMEZXC \m/
Then cher said bout FACEBOOK..
Then cher ask wad's facebook in chinese,,
then jeremy said FEI SI BU KE..!!!
LOL WTF.
If only everyday liddat,,
CHINESE WOULD BE MY FAVOURITE  LESSON MANZXC!! XDDD

True~

BESTFRIENDS: they act like your... - therapist - worst enemy - your lesbian lover - your best friend - your mom - your sibling - like their freakin God or something -but most importantly the person you love the most

By Like It..

We flirted, we texted, we laughed, we cried, i stayed up JUST to talk to you, i changed for you and you "loved" me for it.. then out the blue you tell me it's over.. noww we don't even talk and everyday i have to convince myself i don't still love you cause i know i do and will always love you ♥

LOL

There is a "lie" in believe, "over" in lover, "end" in friend, and an "if" in life. And after Monday and Tuesday even the calendar says W.T.F

I miss it so much..... so much......

Things are never the same...
How i miss the times when we play and stone and slack together...
If time can rewind,, i would choose to stop at those times..
Those happiness which we once had,, is something which money can't buy...

trust :]

 Beautiful Saying… ” If u succeed in tricking someone, Never think that the person is a fool..” .... . . . . . Just know, that its because that person trusted You So much

If.....

If 
I could have just 1 wish, 
i would wish 2 wake up everyday, 
2 the sound of ur breath on my neck, 
the warmth of ur lips on my cheek,
the touch of ur fingers on my skin,
& the feel of ur heart beating with mine,
Knowing that I could never find that feeling,
with anyone other than U

yeA!

We Dont Succeed In Our 1st Love!
Becoz We Lack Certain Qualites.
But
After Achieving Those Qualities,
We Never Love Again! 

If you....

If you ignore me, i will ignore you.
If you don't start the conversation, we won't talk.
If you don't put in the effort, then neither will i.

Believe?

Boys would always say that not only boys care about looks, girls do too when we say guys should not look at into the inner beauty. ok, so i admit. Butt at least we don't filrt as much as you all do; hurt as many people as you do; have some sympathy when we lie and would also feel guilty.. Whereas the guys would just tink its playplay only..

I hate it.

I hate this feeling when you trust someone so much but yet they don't care.
I hate it being sad. I hate crying. But can we stop it?

Why?

I actually have a happy life, but why do i always think i don't?

:)))

Although i know its impossible,
i still dream.
Dreaming that you'll be here,,
it may seems impossible,
but i believe in fate.
The fate that will lead us together<3

Do you agree?

Being alone,
is always better
than being hurt by your loved ones.

The pain,
is something,
which you would never want to know..

?

He..
remind me of him..

My Worst Enemy.

Reality.
Its always been playing with us.
To they think its fun to be teased at?
To be talked behind the back?
To be telling lies when we shouldn't be?

Does it includes me?

People may seem to be on cloud nine on the outside...
But actually the bluest on the inside

love

i have everyday that passes and i cant see you. But even after a horrible day, hearing your voice seems to make everything better. 
After a good day, hearing your voice means a wonderful day that's all,,
 just hearing your voice saying '' I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU'' ,,,
makes my world world right side up.

How?

I want to trust you like how you trust me but i just can't.. All the things he said juz make so much sense... But what you did for me also make a big difference.. How? Believe in who? Or giveup on everything including you two.. ?

SHINee!! XD

HAD A GREAT TIME WIF SHERYL YTD!!
AND SHERLY GAVE ME SHINee CALANDER!! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA~! XD
SUPER HAPPY!!
THEN WE WENT TO TAKE NEOPRINT! AND SHERYL TREAT ME TOO! ARIGATO SHERYL!! NEXT TIME MEET MUST REPAY U WIF ME PAYING FOR IT! XD

SHINee Calander(2011) : 

MY NEW FAV SONG!! XD

ONE!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~!!!
MY NEW FAV SONG!! XD
ENJOY! <333

SHINee~ XD

he

SHINee ROCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

SHINee~

SECOND PART!! ENJOY~~ XD

IF U NEVER SEE.. THEN GO AND DIE! COS U DUNNOE THE TRUE SHINEE!

P.S. Second part coming~

How i know sia..

HOW I KNOW U'RE ANGRY?! U OSO NEVER TELL ME... AS IF I CAN READ UR MIND LIDDAT! KNS... I GOT STM LA! CAN?! I KP U? HA! FUNNY! KNNBCCB !

Sigh...

Seeing his name makes me feel like smacking him in the face and clarifying things with him...
But,, i guess i'll never have the chance to do it...
Is it becos of my shyness..?
If only my fone's sim card wasn't spoiled...

Im Such A Fool

Looking back to those hurtful memories made me realize i was such a fool to have believed you...

IFS'

If only.. I never knew u...
If only.. Time can rewind..
If only.. There was hope..
If only.. Lifer didn't sucks so much...

Then maybe,, my life could have gotten better..
How i wish all this was only a dream.. and that i'll wake up from it soon..

X-MAS Gift Exchange!

MUHAHAHAHAHA!!! I KNOW WAD TO GIVE TO MY DARLING KAILIN DURING NEXT THURSDAY FOR X-MAS GIFT EXCHANGE LE!! BUT NOW NO MONEY YET... NEED WAIT FOR MY MOM TO GIVE ME ALLOWANCE... T~T  WONDER WAD IS SHE GOING TO GIVE ME... HMMMMM

@#$%^&*

THIS BITCH!! FUCK OFF LARH!!
GDragon ahh GDragon... why u so kind..? 

Hurt In Love

The pain in my heart only i could feel
you broke my heart very easily, and i am dealing with it's broken peices,
I try not to think of you cause it pains even more, you have left me all alone to deal with my tears.
...All I ever asked for was love from you, all i got is pain from you.
You said once I dont like tears from your eyes my love, now why is that every time i cry for you it never bothred your heart.
I hate what you have done to me it hurts day and night, but remeber one thing the day will come when you will feel the way i feel and remember what you had put me through.
Then pain in my heart only i could feel.

Why?

Do you know why God created gaps between fingers?
So that someone, who is very special to you comes,
and fill those gaps by holding on to your hands forever :')

Love

true..

Nobody loves u like i do.... LOVE



Trust

Trust yourself.
You know more than you think you do.

Love isn't how much you can get, but how much you can give; it's not about giving up, but holding on, not about how you say, 'I love you,' but how you show it's true."

I wonder..

Is it true that when people we dreamt of are missing them..? I really wanna know...
If its a yes,, then does it means.............
Im confused by my thoughts.. *sigh*

Asian guys and gurlz

When trouble comes your way,
And life seems all uphill,
Find a quiet corner,
Take a rest, and just be still.

The future may look bleak:
You can see no end in sight:
God will help you in that corner
And help you put things right.

Quiet minds can hear more clearly
The voice that speaks within,
So heed His words of wisdom,
Then the healing will begin.

You'll find your mind is calmer;
Your tensions start to ease:
God has taken all your worries
And filled your heart with peace.

-Unknown

Just because someone dosen't love you the way you want them to, dosen't means they don't love you with everything they have.

A Novel

There is this novel which i love so much... Its called the God-Shaped Hole by Tiffanie Debartolo..
This novel made me realise that life is never perfect..
It also made me Cry... This is the first time that a novel made me cry..

There is this part or the novel which i love: ' I don't believe in mystics. I don't believe in fate. I don't believe in destiny or kismet. I don't believe in God. I don't believe in anthing.
  But i believe in the possibility of everything.'  Kismet = fate or destiny..

The summary of this book is: " Tired of the usual dating politics, Beatrice "Trixie" Jordan follows an impuse and replies to a personal ad: "If your intentions are pure, I'm seeking a friend for te end of the world." In doing so, she meets Jacob Grace, a charming young writer, a passionate seeker in life. Despite their jaded views of the world, they fall in immediately in love.
   Trixie and Jacob begin an emotinally charged and tumultous affair, one they try desperating to keep sacred. As they struggle to carve out a future beyond Los Angleles hills, Trixie and Jacob face family secrets that threaten to keep the two close to home...or at least apart from one another.
   With bash humor and a bit of heartbreak, wry and vulnerable Trixie leads us through the joys and furies of her wrenching romance, leaving behind a raw version of love and loss of a lifetime."

The book which made me cry...

From Low Kay Hua

Everyday at 12.01am, god deposited $1,440 into your bank account. we are free to use the cash in any ways that we desire. However, at 11.59pm, this amount will be given back to God. If you have used merely $10 then $1,430 will be given back to God. Then at 12.01am, God will give you another $1,440. Will you spend the $1,440 effectively in the entireday or will you leave it in your hands and return it back to God at the end of the day?

This $1,440 is time. Metaphorically, $1 means 1 minute. We are blessed with the same amount of time everyday. If we choose to waste them, it will not deposit it into our POSB Savings Account. Instead, it will just disapear together . If you ponder into this, you will realise that there is no way to save time. Time, unlike money, is not something tangible that you can keep and use it tomorrow. It is always a matter of how you use your time. We often hear people saying, ' i want to save time ' Now, has POSB, UOB, or OCBC started a savings account that save minutes?

Therefore, if you REalized you have not achieved your goals in 2010, it is not because of some external factors? It is because you used the $1,440 to surf Facebook, stalking your ex-boyfriend or ex-girlfriend account, or simply to play Cafe World has God been fair to you? If you spent your $1,440 on channel 8 dramas and blamed the school system for setting tough examination questions, should you shout "FML" ?

Its all about priortize your tasks. Lets say God is going to, once again, give you $1,440. If you realize reading one chapter of a book is important, then invest $50 in it. That is better than spending $300 on Facebook profiles of people whom you don't even talk in real life. You can't save time ; You can only decide how to spend your time. If 2010 has been bad, that is because  you have invested in the wrong tasks. How is getting 100,000 points in Bejeweled helpful in achieving your goals?